Ballads and Blueprints

One day
Someday,
I’ll tell you the truth
That I hate coming here
And knowing I’ll see you
That at night when I think
You might still be awake
I sit in my car
And I wait and I wait
Till the lights turn out
I think you’ve gone to bed
So I venture downstairs
To find him there instead
Looking around
With a scowl on his face
Like everything he sees
Especially me
Is an awful disgrace
But he walks right by
Without looking me in the eye
How do I get out of this place?
Just a ghost in a shell
And sometimes it’s hell
Feeling like you shouldn’t exist
And people forget
So you take a deep breath
I want to smile
But sometimes, just occasionally
It’s gets lost
Drowning in the things
I’m never able to say
So I lock my self up
Because its so much easier
Then failing to pretend I’m okay
A broken record
I see all my mistakes
Over and over and over again
And when I’m in the dark
Falling apart, I realise
That being invisible means
No one will notice
If you fade away